Meant to Dance For God.

Goodbye 2008, Hello 2009.
Sunday, December 28, 2008

I feel as though a chapter of my life is just about to end
and i did not really take a look back to appreciate God,
and for all the wonderful things that he has done for me.
Though there were a few glances,
i still think that what i did was not enough justice.

I still love God,
so much.
I miss him.

and I have been disappointed in my friends.
i thought they would watch my back but they did not.
especially in the one place that i grew up in,
and the one place i would never expect to be outcast-ed.

Maybe it was just me to expect too much.
but i feel as though i do not belong there anymore.
No warmth.
No friends to really have.

I really do not know what to do already.
I gave and poured my heart and soul into that place,
hoping that they would do the same.
But i guess i was wrong.
for that,
i feel very disappointed.

Have i been too quiet?
too naive to think that others can do the job that i was meant to do?

I guess that is why God called different ones into place,
because of our different personalities,
destinies and callings.

I know that i may not have been the best christian this year.
But i want to grow,
and i want to know more.
what it feels like to fall away,
what the lost feels like.

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Someone told me this before:

'The people who see the Doctor are only the Sick.'

In this same way,
only the lost would want to be found,
and only the sick and needy would want God.

I totally agree with that statement without a doubt.

During this time when I was lost,
I vented my troubles and anger on my studies.
In the end,
I managed to get top 5% of my school.

I never had good results before.
I always wanted to strive towards it.
And once i got it,
It felt as though it's all meaningless.
like a step was out of place,
and that i had came back to square one.

Sure i had good results,
but at the end,
what's next?
Emptiness was just inside,
and meaningless purpose lingered.

Now,
i really want to get back on my feet,
regardless of what it is.
I love God with all my heart,
and not even the world can stop me from loving him.

I ran away from him many times,
and i won't make the same mistake again.

I want to hold him like never before again,
to feel his embrace,
sniff the scents of his holy robes,
have him to tell me stories and
carry me when I'm tired.

This is a new Chapter of my life.
I'll live it like how God would. (:

amen.

danced for Christ.
9:49 PM

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Euphoria.
Wednesday, November 05, 2008

Hey all.

so sorry for not updating my blog for really,
really,
long.

i know some of you guys actually do drop by to check my blog,
and i thank you for that.

i just feel very blessed.

I have been pretty busy with school life and things have been great.
in the 1st semester of school,
i got into the top 5% of school and got into the roll of honours.
Thank God.
currently,
i am concentrating on the A capella concert that's coming up on the 20th of Nov,
Thursday night.

the previous events that went by was Halloween that Club G has organised.
all i know is that,
i have been involved in planning quite a number of camps and other events.
overall,
sometimes,
just feel empty and dried up inside.

i miss my life.

i miss music (not my cat).

in case you guys didn't know,
i had a kitten named music.
he passed on.
and i know that he is definitely in a happier place now.

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music,
is my soul.

it lets me be who i am,
sets me free.

i thank God for pouring out his grace on me all these time,
no matter how unfaithful i may be.

there were different points of life where i thought it was unforgivable and that
it was very hard for me to move on from the rough patch in life.
but now,
i am just thankful for those who have kept me in their prayers,
and people who stuck by my side,
watching me.

i may not be in the best state of my spiritual walk.
but i do want to be back in the life again,
where life just revolves around God and music.

somehow,
this song,
One More Time by Daft Punk
speaks to me.

it lets you be in a state of euphoria,
letting your heart go,
how it wants to be.

i think i forgot how it was to be so happy,
so free,
just being myself,
feeling like dancing again,
just getting up on my feet and dance however i want
and the world can't judge me.

the feeling of being free...
i just want to be free again.
God,
here i come.
love me,
as i love you.

danced for Christ.
9:46 PM

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Footprints In The Sand.
Saturday, August 02, 2008

at this point of time,
it feels as though my world just crashed on me again.
it's tough.

my most sincere prayer is for God to be there for me,
my one and only.

to be very honest,
i don't know why i'm so resistant to change.
maybe its because i have yet to settle down.
once again,
i'm moving on from kingfishers to lighthouse.

yes,
i am changing cell again.
due to some reasons,
it was a decision made to move on to lighthouse,
Saturday service.

change and changes again.
do i really have to change again?
it's the 2nd time this year.
it was painful enough from last time.

who am i kidding.
who am i to complain.
i volunteered to move on.
i volunteered to go through the pain.
i volunteered to do things for God.

i once asked God,
what was it like to be like King David,
to be someone after his heart?

i guess,
this is the answer.
it may not be very clear now,
but i sense that this is was it really takes to go through the trails and obstacles,
and come out victorious.

Who can wash my guilty stains?
i guess that's an answer that is obvious enough.

i wanna leave with a smile.
but,
can i really do that,
Lord?

Footprints In The Sand.

One night a man had a dream.
He dreamt he was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.
For each scene he noticed two sets of footprints on the sand --
one belonging to him and the other to the Lord.
When the last scene had flashed before him,
he looked back at the footprints and he noticed only one set.
He also noticed that this happened during the lowest and saddest times of his life.
This bothered him and he questioned the Lord.
"Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you,
you would walk all the way with me,
but I noticed that during the most troublesome times of
my life there was only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why,
when I needed you most,
you deserted me."

The Lord replied,
"My precious child,
I love you and would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering,
when you see only one set of footprints,
those were the times when I carried you in my arms."

Dear Lord,
Help Me...

danced for Christ.
10:36 PM

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Life's a masterpiece.
Monday, July 14, 2008

let me give you guys a brief summary of what happened today.

had math and computing module today.
did Visual Basics again.

had a small meeting for Club:G,
to gather cardboard boxes for some chariot event,
since Mr President of Singapore is coming to RP.

Bought a new pair of earphones.
Daddy scolded me because he wanted to buy me a better pair.

awwwww.
how cute. (:

what to do?
i'm a daddy's girl.
daddy loves to spoil me. =P

here's what i really want to share with you guys today.

that is,
what i wrote for today's Reflection Journal. (:

i felt that it was a great way to reflect and that it was the best RJ that i have ever written. ((:

question:

"Life is full of puzzles.
The 4 most important pieces of a puzzle are the corner pieces the anchor the puzzle,
build the border and frame the image.
What stands out as the most important pieces in your life?
What are the corner pieces?"

my response.

"I do agree that in a puzzle,
the most important pieces are the corner pieces at the edges of the puzzle.
The one thing we do know is that,
the edges of the puzzle are the ones
that keep us in check,
to help us get on the right track.
It is strange when even a simple puzzle can tell us so much about our life,
and how much it can represent.
I have always believed that everyone is each a puzzle,
a masterpiece of their own.
The different things and people that they meet in their life,
are each an individual piece of the puzzle that makes up that simple,
breathtaking masterpiece.
No one can say what kind of art is ugly or unappreciated,
as life itself is a masterpiece;
one that people can learn and have fond memories about.
Life has its’ ups and downs.
It is due to our down moments that we can enjoy the up moments.
With life being a masterpiece,
all pieces for the puzzle are required to make up the full picture.
However,
we have certain pieces in that particular puzzle that guides us or
at least gives us a rough idea what where the other pieces would be at.

I would dare say that the important pieces are the spine of picture.
In my life,
the important pieces in my life are God,
my family,
my friends and education.
I would say that those are the most important pieces
as they have made who i am today.
Without them,
i would not be standing here,
or even being the ‘Jean’ that people know.
They shaped who i am today,
in terms of my personality,
character,
heart and mindset.
On top of it all,
they gave me the fondest memories of my life,
and i can depend on them to catch me when i fall;
that they have got my back during the times of my weak moments,
or when i feel that things are hopeless or meaningless.
Education is a unique yet unexpected important piece that i have
only realised today.
I would say education as it gives me common sense and my intelligence;
something that would allow me to make the careful and right decisions in my life;
the sense of an individual.
What separates every single one of us other than
our hearts (character, personality)and looks,
are our minds and the way we think.
We all know that everyone is different and that
everyone would tend to have a different kind of thinking in some way.
This is what gives us our sense individuality,
what makes us ‘ourselves’ compared to other people
(otherwise, everyone would be called Jean).

Out of all the four important pieces,
the most important piece is God.
Some people may say that i am religious because i have said that,
but what i am saying,
really is the truth.
Even if i were to relive my life,
i would still say that God is the most important part of my life.
We hang out with our friends,
live with our family,
and have minds of our own.
But what really makes me say that God is the most important piece?
I would just have to say that it is his love for me and everyone else.
He is my joy and it is because of him that i live.
What can i say?
He was there,
at every step of my life,
guiding me,
cheering me on in my times of discouragement,
carrying me in my times of tiredness.
Like the wings of an eagle,
he lifted me above the storms;
cradled me in his arms to keep me safe from harm.
For what he has done for me, is so amazing.
Not even the things i have said here,
could really express how much he has done for me and how much i love him.
I may not be able to explain why God is the most important piece in my life,
but all i can say is that the mistakes in my life are enough for me to cost my life.
With that,
the only reason why I smile is because of his grace and love upon a sinner’s life,
made my life whole and took away an emptiness that i could never quite comprehend.
Other than making decisions with the mind,
i have an even greater duty to my heart.
Sometimes,
our minds may not go with what we may feel or sense at a certain time,
but it is with that step of faith that we are willing to believe and
are willing to pay with their lives;
because we know that it is the truth.
With that,
i can definitely say that God is the most important piece of my life,
something that i am willing to lay my life down for."

simple, yet powerful and true. (:

amen.

danced for Christ.
10:37 PM

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lagggggggg.
Sunday, July 13, 2008

Hey people.

so sorry for abandoning this poor blog again.
i think i am going to change my blogskin again,
sometime soon.

things has been pretty alright.
By God's grace (thank GOD). XD

Recently in Republic Polytechnic,
i served in two Interest Groups (we call them IGs rather than CCAs in RP).

1. Accapella Group : Republic Rhapsody
2. Club:G - Managing committee, Vice President.

please,
whatever that is said here,
keep it within the blog walls.
i'm just here to share my life,
and not boast about it. (:

Accapella's going to have a competition soon.
which means it's my very first accapella competition.

we're doing 3 songs.

1. Baby It's you.
2. Only you. (not the one in alvin and the chipmunks)
3. She will Be Loved. (I KNOW. it's COOL. haha.)

The Accapella group has been practicing.
i'll load a sound clip the next time. (:

a little about club:G.

I'm now,
doing Sonic Arts in Republic Polytechnic,
School of Technology for the Arts.
It's all about the sound and music,
baby. (:

Club:G is kind of,
like the leaders of STA (School Of Technology for Arts).
we plan stuff and we are the people who do plan for stuff like,
Freshman Orientation.

PS: Republic Poly people,
do keep a look out for a Halloween Party in the month of October.
More details to be confirmed later. ;)

Want to know more about my life?

i'm in love with a HOT guy.

by this time,
i'm pretty much guessing you want to know who...

well,
it's God,
Of Course!
After all,
he did create the Sun and the Sky (i know, cold joke).
XD

on a serious note,
here's how the HOT guy looks like.

Brace Yourselves.

Want to See more? =P

Isn't he GORGEOUS?

Children-lovers,
That is for you. (:

danced for Christ.
10:21 PM

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Sukiyaki.
Saturday, June 28, 2008

alright.
This is Equivox again.
this is them doing a Japanese song
'Sukiyaki'.

It's actually quite an old song.
still,
quite a catchy song,
and great melody.
not to mention,
the great arrangement from Equivox.

here's the lyrics in Japanese.

Ue o muite arukou
Namida ga kobore naiyouni
Omoidasu harunohi
Hitoribotchi no yoru

Ue o muite arukou
Nijinda hosi o kazoete
Omoidasu natsunohi
Hitoribotchi no yoru

Shiawase wa kumo no ueni
Shiawase wa sora no ueni

Ue o muite arukou
Namida ga kobore naiyouni
Nakinagara aruku
Hitoribotchi no yoru

Whistling

Omoidasu akinohi
Hitoribotchi no yoru

Kanashimi wa hosino kageni
Kanashimi wa tsukino kageni

Ue o muite arukou
Namida ga kobore naiyouni
Nakinagara aruku
Hitoribotchi no yoru

This is it in English! (:

I look up when I walk
So the tears won't fall
Remembering those happy spring days
But tonight I'm all alone
I look up when I walk
Counting the stars with tearful eyes
Remembering those happy summer days
But tonight I'm all alone
Happiness lies beyond the clouds
Happiness lies above the sky
I look up when I walk
So the tears won't fall
Though my heart is filled with sorrow *
For tonight I'm all alone
(whistling)
Remembering those happy autumn days
But tonight I'm all alone
Sadness hides in the shadow of the stars
Sadness lurks in the shadow of the moon
I look up when I walk
So the tears won't fall
Though my heart is filled with sorrow *
For tonight I'm all alone
(whistling)

Cheers all. (:

danced for Christ.
7:09 PM

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Equivox.

hey guys.

i'm ACCAPELLA madness.
this is equivox,
an accapella group in Singapore.
they were fooling around with the song
'stick with you' by pussycat dolls,
but they still sound good.

have fun! (:

danced for Christ.
6:52 PM

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Dear Diary.
Saturday, June 14, 2008

i only have one thing to say.

despite how strong we can be,
we will still fall without God.
Life,
is nothing without God.
Life,
is never the same without God.

amen.

danced for Christ.
10:29 PM

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Dancer for Christ.

Jump Around.

SOMEBODY.GET.YOUR.PRAISE.ON.

Credits

Goodbye 2008, Hello 2009.
Sunday, December 28, 2008

Euphoria.
Wednesday, November 05, 2008

Footprints In The Sand.
Saturday, August 02, 2008

Life's a masterpiece.
Monday, July 14, 2008

lagggggggg.
Sunday, July 13, 2008

Sukiyaki.
Saturday, June 28, 2008

Equivox.

Dear Diary.
Saturday, June 14, 2008

Dancer for Christ.

Jump Around.

SOMEBODY.GET.YOUR.PRAISE.ON.

Credits

Goodbye 2008, Hello 2009. Sunday, December 28, 2008

Euphoria. Wednesday, November 05, 2008

Footprints In The Sand. Saturday, August 02, 2008

Life's a masterpiece. Monday, July 14, 2008

lagggggggg. Sunday, July 13, 2008

Sukiyaki. Saturday, June 28, 2008

Equivox.

Dear Diary. Saturday, June 14, 2008

Goodbye 2008, Hello 2009.
Sunday, December 28, 2008

Euphoria.
Wednesday, November 05, 2008

Footprints In The Sand.
Saturday, August 02, 2008

Life's a masterpiece.
Monday, July 14, 2008

lagggggggg.
Sunday, July 13, 2008

Sukiyaki.
Saturday, June 28, 2008

Dear Diary.
Saturday, June 14, 2008